20 days ago I blogged about how January had started very well. The depression had lifted quickly and although I was walking on eggshells I was coping very well. Recently I had thought that my bipolar episodes were becoming much more seasonal but being this well in January has made me realise that doing all I can all year to stay well is vital as the bipolar doesn’t necessarily have a pattern to it. January continued in this positive way!
Today as January became February I saw my GP and we reviewed my care and crisis plan as I always do after a bad episode. For me it is important to look at what helps me, what doesn’t help, what can exacerbate my anxiety and after this episode it was important to document the support I had received from mental health services. This time the treatment was excellent and in case I am unable to communicate this in the future it is vital that this is documented somewhere. For me having a long term mental illness is just like a physical illness and the monitoring of my condition is so important.
Even though I am not scheduled to see my GP until after Easter I know exactly what I need to do if things become difficult in anyway.
So January was great! On Saturday night I went out in London and travelled on half a dozen tubes, plus a London bus and it was such a good night. My anxiety was minimal and I enjoyed the whole evening. There wasn’t one point that I felt I wasn’t up to it or that the bipolar was preventing me from enjoying myself to the full. January ended with a birthday party to celebrate my niece’s 1st Birthday which is this week and it was a perfect end to a great month.
I am so thankful for this period of wellness and I am committed to do everything I can to stay as well as I can but always remembering as with many illnesses that it isn’t often in my control and bipolar can affect me when I least expect it and sometimes with no trigger. Remembering this is not my fault is something I will try and remember as even being as well as I do today that isn’t always an easy concept for me.
Let’s hope that February is just as good!